Last night I finally realized another level within my tango experience. I might have know this all along, but never this clear and verbal as before: I can dance well with a woman and everything feels harmonious, smooth and absolutely perfect. We can enjoy the music, play with the music, its rhythm and more. These were the experiences I had been having the last one and a half years, I suppose, at least my memory spits out mostly these kind. But what happens when there is more? When there seems to be another level, another experience that is even more difficult to describe, some sort of emotional connection that has nothing to do with the dance itself, nothing with technique and if your dance levels match or if lead/follow works or not? A connection that makes you wonder if you have just fallen in love with the woman you danced with? Where feeling her whole body seems so pleasant and natural that there is almost some sort of merging happening? I am not necessarily talking about any kind of sexual excitation happening - this feeling is definitely more emotional. A different kind of energy than just sexual attraction or just excitation. Is this what the term “erotic” describes better than just “sexy”? (I just checked reference.com for its definition and realized that there is quite a difference in what I feel the word “erotic” contains and this definition.). And it does not happen with all the ladies that I would consider to be attractive and desirable.
This experience is changing my tango, again. After one year of dancing mostly with the music I just seem to have opened that door again, a door that had been shut for quite a while now after a short experience two years ago… and funny: I would have thought I would never experience such a thing again as I considered it to be too specific and too special. Happy me - finding heaven again - and this time it seems in the arms of two different women.
But then there is another issue: I am still not really sure if this still is just something that exclusively happens between dancers - or between two people who meet and where that connection is more than just a three minute (or three hour) encounter on the dancefloor. Back to the question: falling in love with the dancer or the dancing?
Oh, exciting times.
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